warm seats .

today, after running for the bus (which was luckily not that full), i was able to find myself a seat after a long day of stressing over a science exam that ended up being postponed.

i sat down.

the seat was warm. 

uncomfortably warm. 

a freshly-bum-sat-on kind of warm. 

and i couldn't stop thinking about all the bum germs that were on that seat for the entire ride home. 

... oh the joys of public transport. 

xxteaa

burning the midnight oil .

"burning the midnight oil" means to work/study late into the night.

BUT WHERE IN THE WORLD DID THIS SAYING COME FROM .

WELL MY CHILDRENS . in the olden times of hidden ankles and corsets, there was no electricity, apart from the sunshine in the day time , and a bit of moonlight, their only other forms of light were from candles or oil lamps.

so, if you (like me) are staying up late to study because you have a science exam tomorrow and you forgot everything about the human body, and if you lived in the 1630's , .... except if you lived in the 1630's , you'd still think that the brain is grey . (because back then they wanted to learn more about the human body, but since they didn't have the expertise to cut open LIVING bodies, they cut up deceased ones, but because they were already dead the brains, no longer had blood, so they were grey. WHICH IS WHY YOUR BRAIN IS SOMETIMES CALLED GREY MATTER.)

but anyway, if you DID live in the 1630's , YOU my friend would be studying late by an oil lamp light . hence the saying , "burning midnight oil".

but thanks to thomas edison, we have lights powered by electricity and computers for midnight procrastination so we can write and waffle about pointless things , on a pointless blog that no one reads .

well then, GOODBYE SLEEP . hello to dark circles, eyebags to be and lots and lots of tea and coffee .

xxteaa

when other people start to like it too ...

i've always found it puzzling when sometimes people get upset or annoyed when others start to like the things that they like. 

so let's say you have a friend (LET'S CALL HER BOB) who has been a fan of ... uh ... THE BAND OF BANANA SKINS , for quite some while now.  she always talk about it , and complains about how no one thinks that they make good music , and how they don't understand how everyone does not love them already .

then, your other friend (LET'S CALL HER GERTRUDE) starts listening to one of THE BAND OF BANANA SKINS songs and realises that she also think that they are awesome. then everyone else in your group starts to listen to their music and ALSO thinks that they are awesome . 

 

so you would think that BOB is happy about this ? excited that she can now talk to her friends about how awesome THE BAND OF BANANA SKINS are ? 

apparently not ? instead she is annoyed how everyone likes it all of a sudden and they don't appreciate her when she said it first, but now it's all the hype ! ... ? 

shouldn't we be happy that our friends now share similar interests ? now we can ALL talk about how awesome it is, and not just leave bob talking about their new song by herself!

wow that was a bad example . 

BUT COME ON , who WOULDN'T like the band of banana skins , if it was a band ?

xxteaa 

a daily morning .

1 . hears alarm .  alarm = snoozed .
2 . snooze button is pressed repeatedly
3 . ARGHAGAH. i'm late ... again . (restocks tinytower)
4 . my hair looks like a greasy slimeball .
5 . can't find tights . WHERE ARE MY TIGHTS ?
6 . raids through sister's wardrobe .
7 . half dressed and really tired , i decide to have a two minute nap on my bed .
8 . i wake up ten minutes later ...
9 . brush my teeth and wash DA FACE .
10 . discovesr a new pimple on the face .
11 . blowdry my fringe .
12 . ponytail time !
13 . grab some toast .
14 . RUN OUT THE DOOR .
15 . driven down to the bustop .
16 . see my bus driving pass ...
17 . sad face
18 . contemplate running after it .
19 . re-stock my tinytower
20 . waits for the next bus :(

and that is why i am always late .

xxteaa

BOOM CHICKA WOW WOW .

strawberries are my favourite , especially when there are mutant ones >:)

xxteaa

well then.

you started off being everything i was looking for.
and then you turned out to be the opposite.

what a shame, you almost made me think that you cared.

behind our backs ?

i'm one of those paranoid people who always think that people are talking behind my back. it's not that i don't trust my friends, but sometimes when people bend over and start whispering in hushed tones, i'm always scared they're saying something about me.

what if all the people you thought were your friends were actually just pretending and actually were all backstabbing you ? what if all the people your trusted didn't deserve your trust ?

we've all bitched about people at some stage, especially in high school when gossiping seems to be something that happens almost all the time.

what if for everything you say about someone else behind their back, someone has said something just like that behind YOUR back ?

it's something to think about :/

xxteaa

aiyahhhhh ! asian ?

fob ? 

gosh i can't even count how many times i've been called a fob. 

ok so i have dyed hair, a front fringe and small eyes. i liked pokemon, hellokitty and all that stuff as a child (and i still kind of do). i speak mando and canto and i always slip the occasional 'AIYAHHH' in english conversations. 

i am totally not a fob. fob pretty much means 'fresh of the boat' and is sometimes used as a racist term for people who have just migrated, and nowadays are used more towards asians.

for one, i wasn't even born in china. i was born in new zealand where people eat 'fish and chups' not dumplings. i have a pretty westernized life and to be honest, i'm pretty whitewashed for an asian. when i went back to china, lots of my relatives said that i was 'so westernized' , 'not even chinese' blahblahblahblahblah. which sometimes makes me wish that i was born in china, and that i did live in china, so then i would be able to have the same background as my nationality. 

i'm not even a typical asian when it comes to grades. i don't hardcore study, i procrastinate far too much. and my worst subject is maths. YEAH MATHS. i bet your thinking 'wow, what type of asian is she?'

no actually, i don't really mind maths that much, i think it's kind of fun because i have a COOL TEACHER . but i just suck at the subject. there's a difference ! 

the subjects that i look forward to the most would probably be textiles, food tech and visual arts.

so pretty much, sewing cooking and painting.

WOW . that's so womanly ...

THAT'S LIKE EVERYTHING A PERFECT HOUSEWIFE SHOULD DO.

NOOO I DON'T WANT TO BE A HOUSE WIFE. 

I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR. MY FAVOURITE SUBJECTS SHOULD BE MATHS AND SCIENCE. oh poop :( 

ANYWAYS . i'm ranting like a madmannnn (: PEWPEWPEW ! 

and i have a history exam tomorrow. OHHHH POOP. 

thoughts on running

the reason i first started to run was because i liked the title that went with it.
whenever someone said that they just came back from i run, i thought "WOW THAT PERSON IS SO FIT AND COOL AND SOPHISTICATED". i always looked up to people who would go long distance running, i would be amazed by their stamina and persistence and how they didn't look like a dying chicken when they ran a gazillion kilometres.

running soon became something i did (kind of) regularly, to get away from stress and to test my own persistence.
as soon as i got over that the urge of stopping, i felt like i could go on for ages. i'd say the best part about running is finishing it all, that final moment when you can relieve your legs from the BURNING PAIN.

to me, running's not really about losing weight and all that jazz, but really i do it to test my self and push my self to go further. i definitely don't think i'm great at running long distances because i go at a moderately slow pace when i'm just running by myself and today i freaked out when so many people were sprinting/running in the 800m.

one of the bad things about running is that now i can't run as much now because my knees are really weak because i keep on falling over all the time , so sometimes they start to hurt after running for a while.

but i guess it's worth the pain.

xxteaa

muffin ?

i'm constantly thinking about food . all the time .

the other day i had a dream about eating this GIGANTIC maxibon icecream and it tasted SO GOOD, but then i felt guilty because icecreams are unhealthy, but then i woke up and everything was ok because i got to EAT it but not GAIN any calories. (:

that was probably the best dream ever.

although i'm obsessed with food, one of my biggest fears are gaining weight. and my life is a constant battle of my love of food and being fat.

stupid? i know.

at this current moment, i'm deciding whether i should go downstairs and eat a muffin. omg, i really want to eat that muffin right now. it's so yummy and nommy :D but then again, it's really late, and i won't be able to burn it off because i'll be going to sleep soon. and muffins have lots of sugar especially this one because it's a chocolate chip one. but i really want to eat it.

should i eat it ? SHOULD I ? ALL THIS PRESSURE IS GETTING INTO MY HEAD :(

xxteaa

poo? POO YOU.

so i decided to go for a run. after running 3k nonstop, I WAS FEELING GOOD ABOUT MYSELF.




and then i stepped in dog shit.
story of my life.

brrrrrrrrrrrr. cold :(

TRALALALALAAA. it happens to be incredibly cold these days >:

it took my hands ONE HOUR of piano to warm up. 

and now they are getting cold again. :(

yay i am currently listening to : By Chance (You and I) by JRA <3

BEST SONG IN THE WORLD MUCH ?

if you haven't heard it, well then YOUTUBE IS WAITING FOR YOU. (:

and one of my friends said he would teach me how to play it on guitar !

.. well when i get my guitar. WHICH WILL BE HOPEFULLY SOON :D 

xxteaa 

a little bit .

so you like me a little bit , but how am i meant to know what that actually means ?
you confuse me , and you know who you are .

xxteaa

strawberry facemask yay

i currently can't move my facial muscles or smile because i have a tony molystrawberry facemask on ! 

it smells very very yummy indeed (: it's kind of stingy BUT THAT MEANS IT'S WORKING, i hope. 

i'm starting to see a trend with strawberries ... strawberry facialmask, earphones with strawberries on them, making strawberries out of felt, strawberry nails, strawberry hairtyes but i can't actually use them because my hair is currently too short. poo. bum :( 

19 minutes to go before i can take it off , i wonder if it works :/ ! 

OH AND MORE HAPPY NEWS ! i now have $325.40c for my guitar ! only a bit to go until i reach $350 (:

i can't wait , yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. 

18 more minutes now ... (:

xxteaa 

10 facts about me

#1 i have three chairs in my room and two beds (:

#2 i constantly find myself in the situation where i have to ask someone if they're being sarcastic and this ultimately makes the conversation much more awkward. 

#3 i think i like somebody .. ;)

#4 whenever i shop, i always buy stationary .

#5 i buy notebooks that i never use.

#6 i own 30 pencilcases.

#7 i have eraser collection of over 100 rubber figures 

#8 this is my lucky number

#9 the colour orange is growing on me and i like pineapples. 

#10 i enjoy running in the morning when the sun has just risen because it keeps me happy the whole day (:

a picture taken from one of my runs (:

xxtea 

so it's one am ,

i should have been more organised during the holidays and i totes need to stop procrastinating and writing this blog. my eyelids feel like lead and my bed looks too inviting.

BUT I HAVE TO FINISH MY TEXTILES PRESENTATION.
most of the people who know me, will know that i don't cope well under stressful situations especially when things are left to the last minute. technically this presentation isn't done in last minute because it's not due til in 58 or so hours , if my calculations are correct ! but they'll probably not because my brain doesn't function at this hour.

BUT, i made a promise to myself that i'm not allowed to go to church until i finished this. and i've been looking forward to going this whole week :(

i should continue the presentation now. LESS PROCRASTINATION = MORE SLEEP.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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我爱你，你为什么不爱我呢？

time for something happy

tralalalala , i'm $49.60c from my goal til i get a guitar !

I'M SO EXCITED . 

we we we so excited. 

we so excited.

i'm not so sure if i should get steel or nilon string !

HELP ? 

xxtea

expectations.

i hate it how people always expect me to keep it together. to be the one to organise everything, pull other people's weights.
i hate it how you never wait for me after class and only come to me when you need help or when you need to talk. what about when i need to talk?
i hate it how you just continue on gossiping about the stupid things you talk about and ignore me even if i'm crying.
i hate how when you never ask me if i'm ok, but you ask me "what happened?" which really just tells me that you want to know the about the situation but not how i feel.
i hate it how you never do work.
i hate it how you insult me but you don't realise.
i hate it how everyone expects me to be happy everyday.
i hate it how people ignore you when your happy, but make a ridiculously big fuss out of you when your sad.
i hate it how you never share.
i hate it how you think your the best.
i hate it how you never start the conversation.
i hate it how you don't like me back.
i hate it how i never see you.
i hate organising things and never getting appreciated.
i hate only being appreciated when i emotionally breakdown
i hate how you look at me like that.
i hate how you say "no offense" after something that is offensive and you treat it like it doesn't mean a thing, but it does.
i hate it how i'm always the third wheel.

list of things

bucket list (things to do before i hit the bucket)


1) to run into an automatic door
2) to come up with something so ultra-fantastic that people will realise that i'm ultra-fantastic and everyone will love me
3) write something in the newspaper one day
4) paint a wall
5) buy 10000000000000 balloons and fly to mars
6) discover the unicorn
7) go to the leaky cauldron in diagon alley and get a drink with harry potter . NOT DANIEL RADCLIFFE . HARRY POTTER .
8) ask voldemort what happened to his nose
9) FLY AROUND THE WORLD
10) celebrate new year's TWICE by travelling to different countries
11) dye my hair red
12) stay up all night and watch the sky
13) stay on a swing for 3 hours
14) write a book
15) eat a snail
16) dress up as a chicken and walk around the streets saying "NI HAO MA?"
17) visit new york and see what all the fuss is about
18) MEET WONGFUPRODUCTIONS AND MARRY WESLEY CHAN <3
19) bake a mudcake
20) go to antarctica in penguin form.



xxteaa