well then.

you started off being everything i was looking for.
and then you turned out to be the opposite.

what a shame, you almost made me think that you cared.

behind our backs ?

i'm one of those paranoid people who always think that people are talking behind my back. it's not that i don't trust my friends, but sometimes when people bend over and start whispering in hushed tones, i'm always scared they're saying something about me.

what if all the people you thought were your friends were actually just pretending and actually were all backstabbing you ? what if all the people your trusted didn't deserve your trust ?

we've all bitched about people at some stage, especially in high school when gossiping seems to be something that happens almost all the time.

what if for everything you say about someone else behind their back, someone has said something just like that behind YOUR back ?

it's something to think about :/

xxteaa

aiyahhhhh ! asian ?

fob ? 

gosh i can't even count how many times i've been called a fob. 

ok so i have dyed hair, a front fringe and small eyes. i liked pokemon, hellokitty and all that stuff as a child (and i still kind of do). i speak mando and canto and i always slip the occasional 'AIYAHHH' in english conversations. 

i am totally not a fob. fob pretty much means 'fresh of the boat' and is sometimes used as a racist term for people who have just migrated, and nowadays are used more towards asians.

for one, i wasn't even born in china. i was born in new zealand where people eat 'fish and chups' not dumplings. i have a pretty westernized life and to be honest, i'm pretty whitewashed for an asian. when i went back to china, lots of my relatives said that i was 'so westernized' , 'not even chinese' blahblahblahblahblah. which sometimes makes me wish that i was born in china, and that i did live in china, so then i would be able to have the same background as my nationality. 

i'm not even a typical asian when it comes to grades. i don't hardcore study, i procrastinate far too much. and my worst subject is maths. YEAH MATHS. i bet your thinking 'wow, what type of asian is she?'

no actually, i don't really mind maths that much, i think it's kind of fun because i have a COOL TEACHER . but i just suck at the subject. there's a difference ! 

the subjects that i look forward to the most would probably be textiles, food tech and visual arts.

so pretty much, sewing cooking and painting.

WOW . that's so womanly ...

THAT'S LIKE EVERYTHING A PERFECT HOUSEWIFE SHOULD DO.

NOOO I DON'T WANT TO BE A HOUSE WIFE. 

I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR. MY FAVOURITE SUBJECTS SHOULD BE MATHS AND SCIENCE. oh poop :( 

ANYWAYS . i'm ranting like a madmannnn (: PEWPEWPEW ! 

and i have a history exam tomorrow. OHHHH POOP.