muffin ?

i'm constantly thinking about food . all the time .

the other day i had a dream about eating this GIGANTIC maxibon icecream and it tasted SO GOOD, but then i felt guilty because icecreams are unhealthy, but then i woke up and everything was ok because i got to EAT it but not GAIN any calories. (:

that was probably the best dream ever.

although i'm obsessed with food, one of my biggest fears are gaining weight. and my life is a constant battle of my love of food and being fat.

stupid? i know.

at this current moment, i'm deciding whether i should go downstairs and eat a muffin. omg, i really want to eat that muffin right now. it's so yummy and nommy :D but then again, it's really late, and i won't be able to burn it off because i'll be going to sleep soon. and muffins have lots of sugar especially this one because it's a chocolate chip one. but i really want to eat it.

should i eat it ? SHOULD I ? ALL THIS PRESSURE IS GETTING INTO MY HEAD :(

xxteaa