thoughts on running

the reason i first started to run was because i liked the title that went with it.
whenever someone said that they just came back from i run, i thought "WOW THAT PERSON IS SO FIT AND COOL AND SOPHISTICATED". i always looked up to people who would go long distance running, i would be amazed by their stamina and persistence and how they didn't look like a dying chicken when they ran a gazillion kilometres.

running soon became something i did (kind of) regularly, to get away from stress and to test my own persistence.
as soon as i got over that the urge of stopping, i felt like i could go on for ages. i'd say the best part about running is finishing it all, that final moment when you can relieve your legs from the BURNING PAIN.

to me, running's not really about losing weight and all that jazz, but really i do it to test my self and push my self to go further. i definitely don't think i'm great at running long distances because i go at a moderately slow pace when i'm just running by myself and today i freaked out when so many people were sprinting/running in the 800m.

one of the bad things about running is that now i can't run as much now because my knees are really weak because i keep on falling over all the time , so sometimes they start to hurt after running for a while.

but i guess it's worth the pain.

xxteaa

muffin ?

i'm constantly thinking about food . all the time .

the other day i had a dream about eating this GIGANTIC maxibon icecream and it tasted SO GOOD, but then i felt guilty because icecreams are unhealthy, but then i woke up and everything was ok because i got to EAT it but not GAIN any calories. (:

that was probably the best dream ever.

although i'm obsessed with food, one of my biggest fears are gaining weight. and my life is a constant battle of my love of food and being fat.

stupid? i know.

at this current moment, i'm deciding whether i should go downstairs and eat a muffin. omg, i really want to eat that muffin right now. it's so yummy and nommy :D but then again, it's really late, and i won't be able to burn it off because i'll be going to sleep soon. and muffins have lots of sugar especially this one because it's a chocolate chip one. but i really want to eat it.

should i eat it ? SHOULD I ? ALL THIS PRESSURE IS GETTING INTO MY HEAD :(

xxteaa

poo? POO YOU.

so i decided to go for a run. after running 3k nonstop, I WAS FEELING GOOD ABOUT MYSELF.




and then i stepped in dog shit.
story of my life.

brrrrrrrrrrrr. cold :(

TRALALALALAAA. it happens to be incredibly cold these days >:

it took my hands ONE HOUR of piano to warm up. 

and now they are getting cold again. :(

yay i am currently listening to : By Chance (You and I) by JRA <3

BEST SONG IN THE WORLD MUCH ?

if you haven't heard it, well then YOUTUBE IS WAITING FOR YOU. (:

and one of my friends said he would teach me how to play it on guitar !

.. well when i get my guitar. WHICH WILL BE HOPEFULLY SOON :D 

xxteaa 

a little bit .

so you like me a little bit , but how am i meant to know what that actually means ?
you confuse me , and you know who you are .

xxteaa

strawberry facemask yay

i currently can't move my facial muscles or smile because i have a tony molystrawberry facemask on ! 

it smells very very yummy indeed (: it's kind of stingy BUT THAT MEANS IT'S WORKING, i hope. 

i'm starting to see a trend with strawberries ... strawberry facialmask, earphones with strawberries on them, making strawberries out of felt, strawberry nails, strawberry hairtyes but i can't actually use them because my hair is currently too short. poo. bum :( 

19 minutes to go before i can take it off , i wonder if it works :/ ! 

OH AND MORE HAPPY NEWS ! i now have $325.40c for my guitar ! only a bit to go until i reach $350 (:

i can't wait , yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. 

18 more minutes now ... (:

xxteaa 

10 facts about me

#1 i have three chairs in my room and two beds (:

#2 i constantly find myself in the situation where i have to ask someone if they're being sarcastic and this ultimately makes the conversation much more awkward. 

#3 i think i like somebody .. ;)

#4 whenever i shop, i always buy stationary .

#5 i buy notebooks that i never use.

#6 i own 30 pencilcases.

#7 i have eraser collection of over 100 rubber figures 

#8 this is my lucky number

#9 the colour orange is growing on me and i like pineapples. 

#10 i enjoy running in the morning when the sun has just risen because it keeps me happy the whole day (:

a picture taken from one of my runs (:

xxtea 

so it's one am ,

i should have been more organised during the holidays and i totes need to stop procrastinating and writing this blog. my eyelids feel like lead and my bed looks too inviting.

BUT I HAVE TO FINISH MY TEXTILES PRESENTATION.
most of the people who know me, will know that i don't cope well under stressful situations especially when things are left to the last minute. technically this presentation isn't done in last minute because it's not due til in 58 or so hours , if my calculations are correct ! but they'll probably not because my brain doesn't function at this hour.

BUT, i made a promise to myself that i'm not allowed to go to church until i finished this. and i've been looking forward to going this whole week :(

i should continue the presentation now. LESS PROCRASTINATION = MORE SLEEP.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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我爱你，你为什么不爱我呢？

time for something happy

tralalalala , i'm $49.60c from my goal til i get a guitar !

I'M SO EXCITED . 

we we we so excited. 

we so excited.

i'm not so sure if i should get steel or nilon string !

HELP ? 

xxtea

expectations.

i hate it how people always expect me to keep it together. to be the one to organise everything, pull other people's weights.
i hate it how you never wait for me after class and only come to me when you need help or when you need to talk. what about when i need to talk?
i hate it how you just continue on gossiping about the stupid things you talk about and ignore me even if i'm crying.
i hate how when you never ask me if i'm ok, but you ask me "what happened?" which really just tells me that you want to know the about the situation but not how i feel.
i hate it how you never do work.
i hate it how you insult me but you don't realise.
i hate it how everyone expects me to be happy everyday.
i hate it how people ignore you when your happy, but make a ridiculously big fuss out of you when your sad.
i hate it how you never share.
i hate it how you think your the best.
i hate it how you never start the conversation.
i hate it how you don't like me back.
i hate it how i never see you.
i hate organising things and never getting appreciated.
i hate only being appreciated when i emotionally breakdown
i hate how you look at me like that.
i hate how you say "no offense" after something that is offensive and you treat it like it doesn't mean a thing, but it does.
i hate it how i'm always the third wheel.

list of things

bucket list (things to do before i hit the bucket)


1) to run into an automatic door
2) to come up with something so ultra-fantastic that people will realise that i'm ultra-fantastic and everyone will love me
3) write something in the newspaper one day
4) paint a wall
5) buy 10000000000000 balloons and fly to mars
6) discover the unicorn
7) go to the leaky cauldron in diagon alley and get a drink with harry potter . NOT DANIEL RADCLIFFE . HARRY POTTER .
8) ask voldemort what happened to his nose
9) FLY AROUND THE WORLD
10) celebrate new year's TWICE by travelling to different countries
11) dye my hair red
12) stay up all night and watch the sky
13) stay on a swing for 3 hours
14) write a book
15) eat a snail
16) dress up as a chicken and walk around the streets saying "NI HAO MA?"
17) visit new york and see what all the fuss is about
18) MEET WONGFUPRODUCTIONS AND MARRY WESLEY CHAN <3
19) bake a mudcake
20) go to antarctica in penguin form.



xxteaa

new beginnings

i know everyone looks forward to the school holidays. and on the last few days it's like "HOLIDAYS HOLIDAYS OMG". but in all honesty , i'd rather be at school. i wish that school would start tomorrow so i could get my BRAND NEW CLASS TIMETABLE and get my first assignment and not put it in the last minute.

like everything i have , when it's new i treasure it but then when it gets old it's like . bleeurgh. every new year , i say to myself : " ok tina, this time your going to do it right , when you start school you'll do all your assignments on time and be nice to everyone "

and then in the next matter of hours , it screws up . and i just wait for next year to start.
i do this with everything , even things that i normally hate. FOR EXAMPLE

i went with my mum to dymocks and got two excel books , one for science and maths. i'm actually LOOKING FORWARD to doing them , but i know in the next couple of days , i'll wonder why i asked my mum to buy them for me. in the next couple of days , they'll be old and i won't have the sheer joy of opening up and brand new textbook . SAY HELLO TO THE BACK OF MY SHELF.

why isn't it 2011 yet ?




xxteaa

SUP .

hi helen

that is all.

xxteaa

first blog (:

i've never actually written any sort of blog , but i suppose that's it's like a diary , except everyone can read it and SEE YOUR INNER THOUGHTS O.O

people probably will go off this piece of text after the first sentence but HEY , if your still reading that's pretty supercalifreaking awesome, like YAHH ? i'm not much of a writer so people shouldn't expect much, i normally overthink what i'm going to write and then when i finally come up with a SUPERDUPER idea , it doesn't seem at all that superduper when it's written down , but it sounded good in my mind !

so much for a dramatic first blog . TIME TO HELP MY SISTER COOK DINNER

xxtea