expectations.

i hate it how people always expect me to keep it together. to be the one to organise everything, pull other people's weights.
i hate it how you never wait for me after class and only come to me when you need help or when you need to talk. what about when i need to talk?
i hate it how you just continue on gossiping about the stupid things you talk about and ignore me even if i'm crying.
i hate how when you never ask me if i'm ok, but you ask me "what happened?" which really just tells me that you want to know the about the situation but not how i feel.
i hate it how you never do work.
i hate it how you insult me but you don't realise.
i hate it how everyone expects me to be happy everyday.
i hate it how people ignore you when your happy, but make a ridiculously big fuss out of you when your sad.
i hate it how you never share.
i hate it how you think your the best.
i hate it how you never start the conversation.
i hate it how you don't like me back.
i hate it how i never see you.
i hate organising things and never getting appreciated.
i hate only being appreciated when i emotionally breakdown
i hate how you look at me like that.
i hate how you say "no offense" after something that is offensive and you treat it like it doesn't mean a thing, but it does.
i hate it how i'm always the third wheel.

list of things

bucket list (things to do before i hit the bucket)


1) to run into an automatic door
2) to come up with something so ultra-fantastic that people will realise that i'm ultra-fantastic and everyone will love me
3) write something in the newspaper one day
4) paint a wall
5) buy 10000000000000 balloons and fly to mars
6) discover the unicorn
7) go to the leaky cauldron in diagon alley and get a drink with harry potter . NOT DANIEL RADCLIFFE . HARRY POTTER .
8) ask voldemort what happened to his nose
9) FLY AROUND THE WORLD
10) celebrate new year's TWICE by travelling to different countries
11) dye my hair red
12) stay up all night and watch the sky
13) stay on a swing for 3 hours
14) write a book
15) eat a snail
16) dress up as a chicken and walk around the streets saying "NI HAO MA?"
17) visit new york and see what all the fuss is about
18) MEET WONGFUPRODUCTIONS AND MARRY WESLEY CHAN <3
19) bake a mudcake
20) go to antarctica in penguin form.



xxteaa

new beginnings

i know everyone looks forward to the school holidays. and on the last few days it's like "HOLIDAYS HOLIDAYS OMG". but in all honesty , i'd rather be at school. i wish that school would start tomorrow so i could get my BRAND NEW CLASS TIMETABLE and get my first assignment and not put it in the last minute.

like everything i have , when it's new i treasure it but then when it gets old it's like . bleeurgh. every new year , i say to myself : " ok tina, this time your going to do it right , when you start school you'll do all your assignments on time and be nice to everyone "

and then in the next matter of hours , it screws up . and i just wait for next year to start.
i do this with everything , even things that i normally hate. FOR EXAMPLE

i went with my mum to dymocks and got two excel books , one for science and maths. i'm actually LOOKING FORWARD to doing them , but i know in the next couple of days , i'll wonder why i asked my mum to buy them for me. in the next couple of days , they'll be old and i won't have the sheer joy of opening up and brand new textbook . SAY HELLO TO THE BACK OF MY SHELF.

why isn't it 2011 yet ?




xxteaa

SUP .

hi helen

that is all.

xxteaa

first blog (:

i've never actually written any sort of blog , but i suppose that's it's like a diary , except everyone can read it and SEE YOUR INNER THOUGHTS O.O

people probably will go off this piece of text after the first sentence but HEY , if your still reading that's pretty supercalifreaking awesome, like YAHH ? i'm not much of a writer so people shouldn't expect much, i normally overthink what i'm going to write and then when i finally come up with a SUPERDUPER idea , it doesn't seem at all that superduper when it's written down , but it sounded good in my mind !

so much for a dramatic first blog . TIME TO HELP MY SISTER COOK DINNER

xxtea